i only want what i can't have...

this is true in all aspects of my life.
i want to work only when i feel like it
i want to have a brand new house that i design completely and decorate to my tastes
i want a range rover (have i ever mentioned i work at a church)
i want to go to Europe and not come back until i feel like it
i want an antique Chris-Craft runabout with a triple cockpit
i want to marry Offficer Fleck from CSI:NY (that could happen)
i only want chick-fil-a on Sunday
needless to say i want ridiculious stuff. there really is no end to the stuff i want. the list could go on and on. the reality is...it ain't happening. not right now at least.
now, don't be confused. this is not a complaint. it is merely an observation on my part. an observation that reminded me that most people want what they don't or can't have. why is that? why do we constantly feel that stuff will validate us and that we'll be happier when we get everything we want?
this is silly. stuff won't make you or me happier. it won't make you or me feel more special or important. all it does is create a new list of more. more to maintain, more to clean, more to pack, more to catch up on, more to pay for, more more more.
it was after i realized that my life would be none the more complete that i decided to quit my bellyaching. i should be glad i don't have tons of clothes...as of now i get dressed quickly. i should be glad i don't have chick-fil-a as a sunday option...my pants would get tighter. i should be glad i'm not married to Officer Fleck...his job is terribly dangerous. (ok that was a stretch.
there is noting wrong with my home...it's jsut right for me. there is nothing wrong with having to go to work everyday...i like the interaction. there is nothing wrong with having less...it just means i have to be more resourceful. plus, if i had everything i ever wanted what would i put on my wish list? and isn't wishing half the fun?
so from now on i am going to start wishing for things that really make a difference. i'm going to stop obsessing over things that are currently out of reach. i'm going to be more appreciative of the tons of blessings i do have. and i'm now going to hope for a tall, dark, and handsome man to worry about all of that on my behalf...sounds perfect.